New Years Meanderings

Today has been a day of joy and sorrow; remembering and looking forward. I sit here wishing that I could have a few more hours of uninterrupted musing, but alas my life has become a chapter out of "Hurry up and move to the next thing." I can't decide if this is a good way to live, but it seems to be the way of the world these days. Christmas was an example of this. I tried really hard to get into the Christmas Spirit this year, but it went so fast, and I spent so much of December working, that I barely had time to breathe, let alone appreciate. We decided in September to have a family Christmas party on a day besides Christmas and I decided to take charge and make it happen. It turned out quite fabulously, but in the meantime a lot of time and money was spent on something that will only be remembered in pictures. It seems that I spend a lot of my time and money on things that are fleeting. I spent three months planning a five hour party and while I am happy about the memories I have left it just seems like we should slow down and appreciate a little bit more. My Grandma made a comment a few months ago that went something like, "Christmas again? Didn't we already do that this year?" I felt what she meant. The years pass so much faster the older I get and I can't quite catch my breath. Today we had a rare opportunity to have many of our extended family together for a brief moment. My Uncle Vance and Aunt Cheryl came from Iowa with their youngest daughter Hannah, and newly returned missionary Landon, and Jameson and Jocelyn came up from Panama, and Lynae and Tyler came with baby Camden from Alabama. My brothers and sisters were there with the exception of Spencer and Katie, and my Uncle Kevin and Aunt Debbie drove down from Heber to join us. Their kids live in Idaho and Wyoming, and so didn't make the party but they were mentioned and remembered. We met at my parents house and had a moment of catching up with one another putting the last year in brief review. It was a great opportunity, and I found myself getting a little misty eyed as we bid them farewell. We will have one more opportunity to see Vance and Cheryl's family at Camden's baby blessing on Sunday, but very shortly thereafter they all catch planes to go home, with the exception of Landon, who will remain here to go to school. It's always very hard to say goodbye over and over and I just wish I had unlimited funds and time so I could see them much more often. It's amazing how small the world is and how difficult it is to get places to see people. Kevin and Debbie live 45 minutes away and I see them about 3 times a year. I need to make more effort! It's so hard to make time for all the people who need it! How I wish I could solve the mystery of how to make it easier! One of my friends blogged about her New Years Resolution and asked what her readers would choose. I decided my goal for 2010 is to overcome the natural me... there are so many things that I don't like about myself. I need an overhaul and this is the year for it. I'll no longer take excuses! This is my year! Lend support-- readers of my Boring Life!! This year I'll blog about the changes that happen. Hopefully next years meanderings will leave me feeling like the last 365 days were not wasted on being someone I didn't want to be. There you go! Commitment by writing it down. Here's to 2010!