Be still... and know that I am God

I have been seriously struggling lately.  I am so unhappy with everything in my life and I can't seem to get myself out of the thick of thin things and up where I can see the Light.  Today as I was studying my Sunday School lesson on the importance of Patriarchal blessings I had a small epiphany.  I need to chill out!!  I have been trying to run in 47 different directions and figure out all the answers to life's questions today.  I have been trying to simultaneously figure out how to get my spiritual, physical, financial, and emotional life into a place where I feel comfortable and all the while making myself totally uncomfortable.  I have been fighting with my budget, trying to figure out how to cut back enough to get out of debt.  I have been fighting with my diet trying to figure out how to go all or none.  I have been fighting with myself to get back on track with scripture study and prayer and do all the stuff "I'm supposed to".  I have been fighting with my heart, to help me find happiness!  Today I QUIT!!!  I refuse to continue these fights!!  I have decided that I need to be "content with the things which the Lord hath allotted unto me."  Not that I'm going to give up my quest to be debt free, lose weight, or strive to be the kind of person spiritually that I want and need to be.  I'm not going to give up on it.  I'm just going to take it slower.  I'm going to try to find joy in the every day.  I'm going to start counting my blessings and stop counting all the things that make me feel guilty.  I joined billionclicks.org yesterday.  It's a website started by singer/songwriter Hilary Weeks to try to get everyone to think positively and count their positive thoughts by using a clicker.  I'm going to get me a clicker and count my positive thoughts and actions.  Her whole premise is that by individuals thinking more positively we can change the world.  I encourage you to join.  Start today by counting your positive thoughts and actions and help me change the world.  Today I choose to be grateful for my myriad of blessings and the great things that make up my life.  Today I am choosing to smile and to eat what I choose without feeling like I'm a failure.  Today I choose to revisit my budget and stop letting it stress me out. Today I choose to read my scriptures and just let the peace of the Spirit flow through me.  Today I choose to CHILL!!

Hee Hee