Tuesday, August 13, 2013

16 days...

8 months ago today I was barely thinking about Allen in the context of a potential boyfriend and today we're 16 days away from getting married!  Time has FLOWN!! I thought when we set our wedding date in January that 7 1/2 months was such a long time and now, I can't figure out where the time has gone. Not that I'm complaining because I so can't wait to be married to this amazing man, but I feel like I'm unprepared for all I have to do to be ready in 16 short days.  Realistically I'm mostly done with everything.  Allen has received his endowment, my dress is being picked up from the alteration place Thursday, the tuxedo has been ordered, and we both have shoes.  I have my bridals scheduled for Saturday, I've had 4 showers, the bachelorette party is tomorrow, and Allen's bachelor party is a week from Thursday.  His mom and family have been crazy busy getting the back yard ready for the reception, we've been to 3 different temples getting Allen somewhat used to the endowment ceremony because our Stake President said it was important for us to go often so he could see the progression between endowment and sealing. We're pretty much ready but I'm still worried I won't feel like I've done enough.  Is it possible for any bride to feel totally secure that her plans are solid and everything will go exactly according to plan?  I mean realistically it's already not going completely according to plan.  People who I wanted to invite are lost, people who I wanted to be in the temple with us won't be, family that lives far away won't be able to make the trip.  It's bittersweet because I realize that I don't need anyone but me and Allen and 2 witnesses and a sealer to make it happen, but it's hard when there are people you want to share with who can't make it.  On the other hand, Allen and I will be sealed for eternity.  That in and of itself makes everything completely and totally worth whatever we've put into it and I'm super excited for our future.